vendredi 24 décembre 2010

Joyeux Noël, Merry Christmas

Wishing you a wonderful Christmas time with your family and friend. As we remember Jesus birth I want be thankful for the miracle of my son in our live. May 2011 bring our little boy in our life forever.

Joyeux Noël à tous. Je vous souhaite de passer un temps des fêtes merveilleux en compagnie de votre famille et de vos amis. En ce temps de l'année où nous soulignons la naissance de Jésus je désire exprimer ma reconnaissance pour le miracle de la vie accordé par l'arrivée prochaine de notre fils. Que 2011 soit l'année où notre famille sera réunit pour toujours.

mercredi 22 décembre 2010

Holidays !!!!!

I love my job but it with joy that I close this afternoon my classroom door for the next two weeks. Let enjoy now Christmas season and family time.

We still do not have our court date but I decided to not be worry about that. We are still in the process to update all our documents and some will be available only after Christmas. To have a successful court we need to have our documents updated minimum 4 weeks before our court date so even if we need to wait a little bit longer before we can hold our little boy in our arms I prefer to make sure all our paperwork is done well to avoid more delay in the future. Let have faith that everything will come in God time.

Happy holidays everyone !

mardi 21 décembre 2010

It the most wonderful time of the year....

We are now in the process to update all our documents and to forget to pain associate with all the paperwork chase this is how I decided to call this period of the year. During a long time I thought we will be able to avoid this situation but since our court date will probably be close with the expired date of most of our documents we decided to start already and do our best to avoid more delay.

On a positive side, we receive Part 1 (Citizenship) yesterday. Yé ! Since we already have our referral this paper was an important piece of the puzzle. We are waiting now to know our court date so we can start planning our court trip.

We are also debating about the idea to change the name of our little boy. Since many years, I have already choose a name I really like for a boy. However, since our son will be over 4 years old we are now hesitating to change his name. Any idea about that ? I would like to hear what do you think about that ?

vendredi 17 décembre 2010

Keeping myself busy...

This is what I need to do now. Already three weeks now since we have accepted our referral. I was hoping we will have some new about our court date by now but nothing... I keep telling myself that everything will be fine and we will go in Ethiopia when is the right time for us. We know for sure that out court date will be after mid-February.... but March is a better prediction. I am ready to go anytime but in another way this is not a bad new for us because it will give us some time to plan ahead with our employers.

I do not want a be a complainer but I need to said that parental leave when you are adopting is not very generous. As far as I know my son has the same right to be with his mom then all other bio kids. However, on government eyes or our employers eyes this is not the same. Don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful employer but reality is not only I will not have the same amount of benefits but I will also have a shorter time with my son. 3 days instead of 15 weeks of maternity (at 85 % of my salary) this is what I will have when I will take custody of my son. If you don't really know much about adoption world 3 days make sense as I will not be physically affected by the arrival of my son. However, when you become a mom with adoption is also a necessity to spend a lot of time with your child to create a strong bonding and avoid future attachment issues. The interesting thing I just found out recently is maternity leave does not seem to be intend for giving to the mom and her child time to bond together but essentially to give time to recovery from the physical change happen with her pregnancy. Therefore, in my situation, if we think with this perspective I am not allow to have the same time at home with my child because I was not pregnant. No matter what is the specific needs of my child, the idea is all the time the same "You are not pregnant, we do not have any limitation to be back at work". I think it time we reverse the situation and think about the need of the child first instead of the need of the worker. Our society need to understand that when we put priority in the next generation we are building tomorrow society. I am not asking for a longer time at home with my child but only to have the same time then other children will have with their parents.

In our situation, there is no option to put our child in a daycare during his first year at home. I have nothing again daycare but in the specific situation of our son this is not an option in order to avoid attachment issues in the future. Our son have the right to be with his parents and we need to make the decision to fill his needs no matter if adoption benefits is generous or not. I hope in the future, adoptive parents will find more open ears about the specifics question of adoption leave benefits.

mercredi 15 décembre 2010

Congratulations !!!

Congratulations to one of my reader Laura for your court date. Wishing you a wonderful trip and precious memories when you will meet with your son. For me and my friend Ruth, I wish we will know very soon when we will do our court trip.

samedi 4 décembre 2010

When a teacher become a mom for the first time...

Already a week since we have accepted our referral. Opposite to last week, this one was very joyful but also very busy with report card time. This weekend, I am exhausted probably because all the emotions we been through since two weeks. We try to forget all negatives feelings happen during our referral time and focus only on positives stories. Everyday, when I open my eyes, I think at my little one wondering what he is doing, what he is thinking, hoping that he is happy and feeling good. I know that he is not legally my son but in my heart he is already mine.

I did my first shopping for my son. At first it was overwhelming. Too much choice, too much colours, too much toys... Instead of be happy I was scare. I was looking the child clothing and I realize that I did not know what my child need to have in his closet. Pretty soon I was standing in the middle of the store with tears in my eyes not sure about what I should do. Then I decided to only buy a educative game (to help our son to learn english) and I left. On the way back home, I was thinking how curious was this situation... the first thing I bought for my son was something related to his education. I smile to myself as I realize that I will not only be his teacher but also his mom so now I need to learn to think as mom and not only as teacher.

Fortunately, my mom was in town this weekend and she guides me this morning through the children aisles. At first, I was hesitating but pretty soon I knew what I like and what I don't like for my son. I really enjoy this time with my mom as we were not only shopping for our little boy but also talking about him. I also decided to not buy too much before court to avoid future disappointments. Instead, I decided to buy some clothes for children in our son orphanage. For little price we found some wonderful clothes between 3 months and 6 years old. After all, I enjoy putting all these small pieces in my washer and fold them in my suitcase.

mardi 30 novembre 2010

I am so happy !

I knew my life will change when I will have my child. However, I did not know I will feel so great. It like everything in the world is now looking good. I am so excited to start decorating his bedroom and his playroom. Now, it for reel I can start shopping for him. My mom and I also started talking about having a baby shower in the spring (between our two trips) with the idea to have a fundraising night about Ethiopia. It will be so great if we can share to joy to become parent of our son and also be able to help other children in Ethiopia.

We are very busy with paperwork, specially with Immigration as we still not received our part 1. My husband call this morning to expedited our process. All letters will be in the mail tomorrow morning and we believe we will receive this precious letter very soon.

dimanche 28 novembre 2010


Yes ! Time has come for us to become the parents of one of the most beautiful little boy. We are so happy to inform you that we just accept the referral of a 4 years old boy. We are very happy but in the same time very sad to read about his life and all the grieving he will need to do in his life before he join our family forever.

We are over the moon. We look at his picture and we are amazed to have the honour to become one day his parents. However, our referral story was not a fairy tale. For different raisons and also in order to respect our son's life privacy we do not want to say too much detail about that but I think it important to say that the last ten days has been really difficult for our family. After the joy to received our son referral we have learn some details about his health and after we got a wrong medical advice from our family doctor. We were devastated with the idea that we might need to declined our precious referral. During this difficult time we got a lot of support from our friends and family. I would like to thanks Ruth and Jennifer, two precious friends who are also in the process to adopt a child from Ethiopia. These two friends were there to support me all week. Their presence help me to look all the possibilities available for us.

Even all these negative answers we did received, I was not ready to sign our referral decline and I decided to take my time to process all the informations. Last Wednesday, we decided to ask for a second medical advice from a international adoption doctor (adoption clinic in Edmonton). This move was the best we can ever do. Unfortunately, she was not available to meet with us in a short time due to all the referrals she have received from Ethiopia. She was only able to meet with us Saturday night. We decided to wait until Saturday in order to have a other view about the medical report of our child.

Saturday, was a long day. I was so nervous and tired. The last week has been very exhausting with all the emotions and our sadness. I find it was hard to go to my work and put a mask in my face. So yesterday was the big day to help us to made our final decision. All day, I clean up, cook, put my Christmas decoration.... I try to change my mind and my hope was to believe to a miracle until the end. Then around 21:00h our phone ring and it was our doctor ready to talk with us about our child health situation. She was wonderful. During 1:30h... yes all this time she took the time to explain the social context in ethiopian adoption and share with me her knowledge and then she look at the lab result and all physical aspect of our child report. She gave me the time to ask all my questions and then she gave me her final advice. Our child has some medical condition who need to be look after when he will be in Canada but the good new is he can have a medical treatment and majority of the ethiopian child she saw with this condition had a recovery in the next year of their arrival. I was so happy to hear this wonderful new because it was the opposite of what I have hear from our family doctor.

After her phone call, my husband and I had a long discussion and we decided to go the sleep and made our decision Sunday after church. I did not had a good sleep as I was turning around all night wondering if ?.... and what will happen if ?... why ? Church this morning was awesome. Our lunch time was long and in silent. I was almost done when my husband ask me...

- So went will we go pick up our son ?

- What ? I was so surprise... excited... one of the most awesome moment in my life.

We had a honest discussion and explain how we felt about this child. For both of us he is our and we decided to accepted our child referral.

Since this afternoon, I am over the moon. I am so happy to have the privilege to become one day the mom of this beautiful little boy. Our journey to him was hard but the only thing I want to remember is the day we meet him, he become our son in our heart. Our families are really excited to welcome Samuel in our family.

La version française de cette merveilleuse histoire sera publiée sous peu.....

vendredi 26 novembre 2010

Congratulations !!!

Despite the hard time we are going through, my heart rejoice right now for two of my friends and blog readers who has accepted their referral. Ruth will be the mom on a little boy and a little girl and Laura will be also the mom of a 3.5 years old boy. Congratulations to both of you. We are happy to see two positive stories in our adoption world. Wishing you a smoothly and fast court and a visa process.

mercredi 24 novembre 2010

I would love to write....

.... but I can't right now. Something happen last week and our life is in limbo since that time. That moment was suppose to be one of our best moment of our life but it was not... I am waiting for some answer and I hope that I will be able to be back soon on my blog.

mardi 16 novembre 2010

Referrals will come...

This is a magical sentence when you are in the process to adopt a child. This little word "will" make all the difference. It bring hope and trust in a positive future for our family. Every little news is a wonderful feeling when you are waiting to know who will become your children. Hang on all my friends, our referrals will come...

vendredi 12 novembre 2010

Lest We Forget

Remembrance Day was yesterday. However, I do believe that this day should not be commemorate one time a year but also in our everyday life. Because Remembrance Day is directly related to the war, this subject may become really sensitive for some people. Can we stand again war and violence and also commemorate our soldiers life ? Yes, I do believe that Remembrance Day is not about being for or again war but first of all about humanity, life, sacrifice and family lost. When I think about Remembrance Day I do not think if is right or bad to be involve in a controversy political situation overseas but I do remember wives, children, mothers, dads and friends who lost someone important in their life.

For you families and friends... Lest We Forget !

jeudi 28 octobre 2010

Nothing really to say...

I did not post since Thanksgiving. On one side, I feel awful for my readers but in an other hand I do not feel I have something positive to say. Work is doing good, meeting with family and friends is all the time wonderful. I should be happy, however something is missing and I get more and more impatient about that. Today, for the first time, I try to imagine my life without having a child... I do not like to be negative but reality is that even if I am not old, I am not young either... I would like to believe in our adoption process but I get tired to face all news obstacles in our way. It seem that every month we need to deal with a little "surprise"... I feel like I am pregnant since two years and I am tired to be... Something need to happen soon.

lundi 11 octobre 2010

Happy Thanksgiving !

In this time of the year it time to celebrate all wonderful and positives things happen to us in our life. We are healthy and we are bless to have our family around us. Let think about all these positives things and forget about everything who make us worry.

Happy Thanksgiving with your families.

jeudi 7 octobre 2010

Mystère et boule de gomme...

J'étais pas mal positive ces derniers temps car je me disais que puisque nous avions changé l'âge de notre requête (0-3,5 ans), nous devrions probablement recevoir une proposition très bientôt... mais là il va falloir vraiment que je me trouve un nouveau projet parce que plus le temps passe et rien ne semble bouger pour nous. Le mois dernier, notre agence a fait 1 proposition d'enfant.... on est # 158... on s'entend que à cette vitesse là je vais être maman quand je vais avoir 40 ans....

Les parents qui ont reçu leur proposition d'enfant cet été ont reçu aujourd'hui leur date pour comparaître à la cour (1er voyage en Éthiopie)... leurs dates est en décembre donc environ 3-4 mois après la proposition de leur enfant. Par la suite, on doit attendre un autre 6-8 mois pour recevoir le visa de Immigration Canada (pour ramener nos enfants au Canada) donc de façon réaliste on peut dire que nos enfants ne vont pas arriver avant la fin de 2011 et même en 2012... Désormais, je dois envisager cette réalité et je trouve ça tellement loin comme date.

Sans compter le fait que nous avons reçu cette semaine une lettre de Immigration Canada qui nous informe que ça prendra environ 27 semaines pour vérifier si nous sommes Canadiens... euh c'est parce qu'on a déjà un passeport canadien... pourquoi ça prend autant de temps alors ? Mystère et boule de gomme....

I was very positive since few weeks. I was busy with school and I had the feeling that our referral will come soon... Why ? I don't know just a very strong feeling. However, since we already started October I really need to find another project to work on because now I have the feeling that nothing move and this is not good for help me to stay positive. Last month our agency did 1 referral. I was hoping a little bit more...

Families who receive their referral last summer got their court date today. I was very happy for them. However, I realize that if their court date is in December our children will not be with us before the end of 2011 or even 2012... It sound so far... but it seem to be the reality I need to face on.

Not only that but CIC inform us this week that it will take around 27 weeks to investigate if we are Canadians.... Well, it because we both have a Canadian passport.... Why it take so long to confirm our part 1 ? In French, we have a expression "Mystère et boule de gomme..." mean big mystery.

mardi 5 octobre 2010

Dr. Samantha Nutt and a noble cause

Today, we had the privilege to have a special guest speaker in our school, Dr. Samantha Nutt. I did not really know about her and I was really happy to have the opportunity to know more about her work with war children. Meet her in person was wonderful. She is kind and simple. Someone special who make a difference in our world. To know more about her, you can watch the clip. Her story is around 1:29 min.

Dr. Samantha Nutt et la cause des enfants soldats

J'ai eu le privilège de rencontrer le Dr. Samantha Nutt aujourd'hui. Wow ! Ce fut une belle expérience de l'entendre nous raconter, sans flafla, ni tambour la dure réalité reliée à la guerre dans les pays du Tiers-monde. Cette présentation fut aussi une excellente opportunité de faire une réflexion sur la part que devrait faire les pays industrialisés dans les conflits mondiaux. Jusqu'à quel point la sécurité nationale doit-elle avoir préséance sur le respect des droits humain ? Tel fut la question soulevée par le Dr. Nutt aujourd'hui.

jeudi 23 septembre 2010

Do you speak French ?

If you understand French language, you probably wonder why I do not write in French. Well, I need to admit that living most of my day in a English world I forget sometimes about my first language. Yes, school is in French but teaching in French and living in French is two realities really different for me because now my emotional referents are in my second language. Because I learn my second language during my adult life and I still do not master completely my English language I never feel I should be scare about loosing my first language skills. However, now I realize that if I don't make a effort I need to face the reality that yes my French skills might be affected. This is make me wonder how it will be for our children ? They will come with their own language and culture and with us they will learn two news languages and cultures.... What will be their identity ? If my own culture and language are so important for me this must be the same thing for my children when they will be with us.

mardi 14 septembre 2010

Under his wings...

Recently I was wondering why life seems so unfair and contradictory. However, there is some days were life is also a miracle and today was one of those days. Sometimes in life, even if you are very organize and you did plan everything bad luck happen and today I had a big one. My students and I are planned to go in a cultural French trip this friday. Today I learn that our bus was cancel because they did not have enough driver.... 3 days before our trip !!! Are you kidding me ? What I am suppose to do now. Well, I had two options. The first one was to cancel our trip, which will be very sad for my students. The second was to find another bus. I was not very optimistic but I after few research I did found one available. However, the price was higher and I knew we can't afford this payment. I felt I was falling through a huge mountain and nothing was there to stop me when other teachers and my administration start to help me to find a solution. See all this people help me to find a solution was a wonderful feeling and together we did find one. What a wonderful feeling to have everybody around for help me and feel someone was protecting me.... I was under his wings. I will never forget this experience. So, some days can be nice....

dimanche 12 septembre 2010

Why ?

There is some situations in life where we find no answer and make me have the same question... Why ? Why my happiness need to come from someone else pain ? Why good people pass away and mean people are still alive ? Why we live in a contradictory world ? There is some questions I have and I still did not find a answer. Being part of the adoption world does not help to answer those questions.

Let me say, I am not depress. I am a positive woman who truly believe in human being. However, I need to admit that I do not understand the world I live in.

mercredi 8 septembre 2010

I am still alive...

Can you tell that something just change in my life ? Yes, it time to be back at school. Right now you probably wonder.... student or teacher ? Both.... Yes school restarted last week and life is very more busy for me right now. Every minutes seem to be so important during the day but busyness help me to forget about adoption process so I am very happy to be back in school.

I did receive my CanTest (English test) result yesterday and I am very happy to inform you that I made it....

Listening Comprehension : 5.0 (Very Good User)
Reading Comprehension : 4.5 (between very good and competent)
Written Expression : 4.0 (Competent User)

Now I just need to do the speaking test but it should be ok because I have the opportunity to practice my oral skills everyday.

mercredi 1 septembre 2010

"Procrastination" Tales Of Mere Existence

Too funny !!! Did you ever be like him ? I do sometime but my new resolution this year (yes new year for me always start in september with school) is do not procrastinate too much.

mardi 24 août 2010

Congratulations ! Tribut to my friend

This morning I had a wonderful new waiting more me in my mailbox. My dear friend Ruth got her referral. Congratulation my friend I am so happy for you. Ruth is a special friend I met through a online discussion board. When the bankruptcy happen last year, a lot of family affected by this tragedy gather on this web site to have news and discuss about this horrible nightmare. Right a way, I notice Ruth's messages with her positivity and her hope. Instead of be depress, Ruth was proactive and confident. She refused to be negative and was part of the group who work so hard to reopen our agency. During this nightmare, Ruth's attitude was a example for me to stay strong and confident in God plan. Few months ago, we were inform about the lack of referral for sibling. I was really sad about that not only for me but for my friend Ruth who was expecting since many years to have a sibling referral. However, despite the deception, she never being negative about this situation and change her request for a single child with courage and positivity. Today, I am amaze to see how God plans are wonderful for our life. My friend got her referral and more wonderful she is now mom of three children. Yes she got a sibling referral !!!!

Ruth's attitude give me the hope that one day I will have the referral who fit perfectly to our family.

Congratulations my friend, I am so happy for you.

vendredi 20 août 2010

Joy and happiness !!!

Today our adoption group are celebrating the referral of two sibling group. After a six months wait we can now see a movement in the sibling list. What a relieve.... I am so happy for these families tonight.

Now, I am praying that my friend Ruth will receive her phone call very soon....

mardi 17 août 2010

Craving for Ethiopian food

Since fews days I am craving for Ethiopian food... so guest what I will eat tonight ?

vendredi 13 août 2010

Signed !!!

We signed this morning our addendum to allow us to adopt a older child. We are so happy to did this change in our request. When we start this process two years ago we did not know much about adoption world. We made some decisions with the knowledge we had at this time. I do not have a child for now so at that time, everything in my life was about babies. Normal reaction because when you create a family you usually start with a baby. However, international adoption had some surprises for me. One day, I connect online with other future adoptive parents who like me are waiting to be match with their child. This wonderful connection gave me the opportunity to know more about adoption challenges and realities. One thing touch my heart, older child situation. However, before making a change in our request it was important for me to forget the baby idea and picture my life with a older child almost ready to start school. What a big difference with my first idea to adopt a child but now I feel in my heart that is the right thing to do. After all the adventures we being through in the last two years and the ones we still don't know about (because international adoption is so unpredictable) I just want to be a parent and open my house for a child who need to be love and cherish.

dimanche 8 août 2010

"Like Dandelion Dust" Trailer movie - in theatre September 2010

What do you think about this one ? Movie based on Karen Kingsbury novel. I will read the book but I don't know if I will be able to see the movie....

The Story
Joey lives an idyllic life with his parents on the coast of Florida. His days are spent playing with his cousins, sailing with his dad, and making up stories with his mom.

It's a perfect life until the day they receive a disturbing phone call: a stranger's decision could tear Joey away from the comfort and security of the only home he's ever known.

One family is determined to keep the son they love, the other is determined to begin a new life, the life they've always dreamed of. Joey's future rests in their hands and someone must make the bravest decision of their life.

Sometimes the greatest love is letting go.

To Save A Life - Official Teaser Trailer [HD]

A inspirational movie about real-life challenges of teens and theirs choices.... social divisions, school violence, cutting, suicide, teen pregnancy, divorce. I really enjoy seeing this movie last night.

Jake Taylor has it all, friends, fame, a basketball scholarship and the hottest girl in school. What could be better? Enter Roger Dawson. Roger has nothing. No friends. No hope. Nothing but put-downs and getting pushed aside. Jake and Roger were best friends when they were kids. But the politics of high school quickly pulled them apart. Now Roger doesn't fit in Jake's — or anyone's circle – and he's had enough. He walks onto campus with a gun in his pocket and pain in his heart and makes a tragic move. Jake's last-ditch effort can't stop Roger, and the sudden tragedy rocks Jake's world. Something breaks loose inside and sends him questioning everything. Most of all, he can't shake the question; could I have saved Roger? In a quest for answers, Jake finds himself looking for the next Roger and reaching out to the outcasts and lonely. But he quickly finds that crossing class castes threatens all his world is built on. And it could cost him his own friends, his girl, his dreams and even his reputation. Is it worth the price to find the answer to his ultimate question; what do I want my life to be about ?

mardi 3 août 2010

I need your help !

In three weeks I will do the CanTest to evaluate my English level. The CanTest is a standardized English proficiency test used to give you some idea of how much additional English language training you may need. This test has three parts : Listening, reading and writing. Listening and reading should not be a challenge. However, writing is my biggest fear. I know my writing is not perfect and I would like you bring to my attention some mistakes I usually do so I can practice until the test. Asking help is never easy because we need to accept first to be humble. However, I know it better I learn now then later.

To pass the test I need to be at level 4.

CanTest band levels in writing.

Level 3 : Limited writer : Sometimes communicates intended meaning. Limited range of vocabulary and structures. Errors interfere with understanding. Development may be disjointed.

Level 4 : Modest writer : Usually communicates intended meaning, with an adequate range of vocabulary and structures. Some errors, but they usually do not interfere with understanding. Topic is somewhat organized but may lack cohesion.

Level 5 : Very Good writer : Clearly and effectively communicates meaning, with a wide range of vocabulary and structures. Presentation is well-organized. Errors are infrequent and minor.

Thanks for your help.

lundi 2 août 2010

14 months

We officially hit today our 14 months waiting in our adoption process. What to say about this anniversary ? I need to admit that I have mix feelings about our waiting time. First of all, I understand that I can't speed this process with my own strength and I feel that the only thing I need to do right know is keep myself busy. Busy enough that my head will forget about the timeline. Fortunately, I am a busy girl. I like having two or three projects in a row, working full time and studying at the university in the same time, traveling, volunteer my time with community projects. However, it does not seem enough to being busy because timeline start to be heavy in my life even with all my projects.

Two years ago, when we started our adoption process, my thinking about adoption was very romantic. I knew it will be not easy but not as much as all we being through last year. I am really thankful that our adoption is still in process. Last year we being through a horrible nightmare with the bankruptcy of our agency. At that time, we did not know what will happen for us and we were so devastated by the idea to shut down our dream to become a family. "Feel free to choose a another country and restart you adoption process" said to me a woman form Ontario child ministry last year. One year later, I can't believe she said that and my heart still cry when I think about that. How can we just "restart again" ? Adoption process is not a Monopoly game where we can "try again". People all over Canada were affected by this tragedy and without propers answers we feel a reel comfort to be in contact with another families like us via Internet. An incredible team work started with government lobbying and television, radio, newspapers interviews. All over Canada, families choose to be resilient. Our petition had over 7000 signatures and even without answers we choose to have hope. Fortunately, BDO (Trustee agency in charge of the bankruptcy) open their heart (instead of their administrative rules) and help us to keep alive our agency by offering to work on a restructuring plan. During many months we lived with the hope but also with the stress to see our dream shut down again. Around Christmas we receive the best gift... our agency reopen and restart giving child referral. What a release !!! 2010 started with more child referral then we expected and we were confident that the rest of our wait time will be more smooth.

Our initial timeline before the bankruptcy was 12 months. Now, we don't know what to expect. Rules changes in the country were we adopt in order to ensure more ethical process. We fully support this initiative because we do want do to a ethical adoption. However, being in the middle of this process and never know what to expect is hard. We also need to travel two times. After having our referral we will need to attend to the court to become the legal parent of our child and come back in Canada without our child. Around six months later, when Immigration Canada will issue our child visa we will go back and bring back our child in Canada. So much things happen in the last 14 months and often I feel tired about the entire process.
In a other hand, I am so thankful that our file is in Ethiopia. If is was not the case our timeline will be even bigger. Our file was one of the last who was send before the bankruptcy so we are really happy to be in line.

As you can see, I have a mix feelings. I feel this waiting time heavy to handle and in the same time I do not want complaint because I know the situation can be more worse.

La version française de ce message sera publiée prochainement.....

Alegria by Cirque du Soleil - Official Trailer

Enjoy and dream....

samedi 31 juillet 2010


Expecting the unexpected. Alegria from the Cirque du Soleil was a awesome show. From the beginning until the end Alegria kept my attention in all the little details. All was there, acrobats, clown, dancers, musicians.... Even before I saw the show I knew how excellent Cirque du Soleil productions was and tonight production was wonderful. Acrobatics scenes was terrific but what catch my attention was all the support role play during the artist performance to ensure a optimal performance. The burlesques scene were also awesome and make me smile and laugh. It was wonderful to see the contrast between the perfect acrobatic performance and the imperfect clown choreography and remind me how it important to laugh about ourselves and do not take life too seriously.

Un enchantement total. J'ai eu le bonheur d'assister ce soir au spectacle du Cirque du Soleil Alegria. Tout y était pour nous divertir, acrobates, clown, danseurs, musiciens... Avant même d'avoir vu le spectacle, je savais qu'il serait excellent puisque la musique de ce spectacle accompagne mon imaginaire depuis ma jeunesse. C'est donc dire que j'étais déjà vendu à l'avance. Les scènes de haute-voltige, des contorsionnistes ou des acrobates furent fabuleuses mais ce qui a le plus attiré mon attention était le rôle de support joué par de nombreuses personnes afin d'assurer à l'artiste une performance à son maximum. Tout y était dans les moindres détails et les transitions entre les numéros étaient un spectacle en elles-mêmes. Fidèle à sa mission qui est le divertir son public, le Cirque du Soleil ne fait pas exception dans ses scènes de burlesque qui nous font oublier les petits soucis de la vie et rire aux éclats. Le contraste entre les mouvements parfaits des acrobates et ceux des clown qui laisse à désirer nous rappelle combien il faut savoir rire de soit même et éviter de se prendre trop au sérieux.

dimanche 25 juillet 2010

Les forces de la nature

Le silence des derniers jours a été interrompu par les orages violents qui se sont abattu sur notre région. Vent, pluie, tonnerre, éclairs.... tout y était. L'heure du départ avait été fixée à 14h mais devant ce spectacle des forces de la nature nous avons été contraint de revoir nos plans et de profiter de quelques instants supplémentaire en famille. La journée d'hier avait été chaude, agréable, paisible. Quel contraste avec la journée d'aujourd'hui.

Sans avertissement, le fracas du coup de tonnerre nous rappelle combien malgré tous nos efforts de contrôler et de diriger notre vie il ne faut pas se surprendre si nos plans ne fonctionnent pas toujours comme nous l'avions prévu. Cependant, au détour de l'attente se retrouve souvent une situation inespérée, souvent meilleure que celle que nous avions prévue.

mardi 20 juillet 2010

dimanche 18 juillet 2010

Why learn another language ? (Part 2)

When I and use to live in my French unilingual world I never realize how can be the world outside what I was use to see. One day, the opportunity came to go outside what I was use to be around. Curious, I jump in this new challenge with no ideas about what to expect. It when I was surrounded by a incomprehensible language then I realize it will take more then a desire to learn another language, it will take a lot of patience.

However, after fews years the little French girl can now express her opinion and be involve in a discussion. Yes is not perfect but at least she try. A lot of adventures are presents since the beginning of this journey but also a lot of positives surprises.

Congratulations !

Congratulations to Laura and Chad who receive their child referral : a baby boy. They will be one of the first families who will need to travel to appear to the court hearing. We hope for them a smooth visa process and soon to have their baby boy in their arms.

Welcome !

Welcome to Rana and mslevis who just join this blog.

vendredi 16 juillet 2010

Salt and Sugar

Did you ever wonder despite the sweet taste why we put sugar in a lot of recipe ? I never think about that until yesterday night. With the help of a little cook, I decided to do a educative three years old activity... doing a chocolate cookie recipe. Our mission was not only be able to eat our cookies after but also learn math and dexterity skills. We start from scratch, playing with flour, smelling cinnamon and vanilla, eating chocolate and of course cracking eggs (Oh what of fun !!!!). Very proud we put our cookies in the oven and we wait a long 8 minutes.

Ding !!!! Really excited, we open the oven and something was wrong. Our cookies did not have the right texture. They look like.... too healthy. I have nothing wrong again eating healthy food but those cookies was not suppose to look like that (small, compact and not looking good). What happen ??? We taste and a little three years old face show me right away what ingredient was missing.... the sugar.

What happen ? I know this recipe since a long time and I did so often then I can even close my eyes..... I don't know what happen but for sure I forget to put the brown sugar and not only the taste but the texture was different.

This interesting experience make me realize how something little thing can do big difference. Yes, we like sugar for the sweet taste but we forget how the chemical reaction is one of the main raison why we need this specific ingredient.

Welcome !

It a great feeling to write and put in words your reflexions. It another great feeling to be read. Welcome to Ruth, Tammy, Jessa and Robyn.

jeudi 15 juillet 2010

Why learn another language ?

People who remember me five years ago will probably have in their mind the picture of a very quiet girl. Yes I was. However, is not because it was one of my character trait but mainly because I was a French girl in a English world. Yes, I did it. I move away from my French world to another canadian province with the hope to learn the mysterious English language.

English was my worst subject in school. I do not know was but I know for sure that I never enjoy that class and was terrify by the word "oral presentation". These days were the perfect day to be sick in bed. One day someone laugh at me during my oral presentation and that it, I was done with learning anything about English. Fews years later, I understand pretty fast that knowing English in Canada was not only a good option it was a necessity.

Did you know French news and English news are different ? The topic are often the same but the journalist perspective can sometimes be really different.

Rest of the story will follow later......

Dire ou ne pas dire...

Me voilà désormais confronté à différencier ce qui appartient à l'ordre public (ce qui est écrit sur mon blog) et à ma vie personnelle. De nature assez privée, dès mon entré sur le marché du travail, j'ai rapidement tracé une ligne entre ma vie personnelle et ma vie professionnelle. Le deux pourraient facilement cohabiter ensemble cependant un malaise m'envahit à l'idée de faire ce mélange. Cela dit, je suis très heureuse dans ces deux mondes et voilà que maintenant j'ai la drôle d'impression que j'en ai trois.... Ce troisième est plutôt particulier puisqu'il appartient à une sphère que je ne peux contrôler puisque partager ses idées implique directement de s'ouvrir à l'inconnu, à ceux que l'on ne connaît pas nécessairement et arriver à créer une relation qui, on l'espère, saura satisfaire à la fois le lecteur et son auteur.

J'ai toujours voulu écrire... en fait, depuis plusieurs années (je devrais dire plus qu'une décennie) je clame haut et fort que j'aimerai écrire des histoires et mieux encore qu'elles soient publiées. Les idées fourmillent par dizaines dans ma tête et n'attendent que d'être mise sur papier donc cela devrait être facile ai-je pensé. Erreur !!! Il ne suffit pas d'avoir des idées, encore faut-il savoir leur rendre justice, prendre le temps de les écrire et plus encore savoir assumer ses propos lors de leur publication. Mes fidèles supporteurs (ces amis qui croient en vos talents avant même d'en avoir vu la couleur) attendent donc patiemment la journée où j'accepterai enfin de leurs faire lire quelques lignes.

Pourquoi les avoir fait attendre aussi longtemps ? Vous conviendrez qu'il est difficile de faire lire ses écrits si son auteur les effacent... Oui, je dois avouer qu'il m'arrive régulièrement de peser sur la touche "delete" terrifiée à l'idée qu'une tierce personne puisse porter un jugement sur des idées incomplètes et trop personnelles. Puis les années ont passé, les projets de vie ont changé, mais le désir d'écrire est toujours resté, ancré au plus profond de moi-même. Puis, le fil de la vie nous apprend à dissocier les idées personnelles de celles qui ont le potentiel d'être diffusées. Et un jour, la maturité nous permet de faire le grand saut....

Blog launch / Les premiers pas dans un nouveau monde...

I decided to open my blog to share about life reflections on different topics (humanitarian work, second language learning and challenges, history, politic) and also a dear subject to my heart : our international adoption process. Living in a french minority setting a decided to open a bilingual blog. About my English writing, I believe I am functional but not fully bilingual. Therefore, I am thankful for your understanding about my imperfect writing skills. I am open to learn but as you know, learning another language do not happen in one night (I wish... lol) However, I do believe that put my pride aside will help me to improve my second language skills.

Welcome in my world !

Et voilà, c'est fait, je suis désormais membre de la bloggosphère. J'ai longtemps hésité à m'y joindre tiraillée entre le désir de protéger ma vie privée et en même temps partager les hauts et les bas que nous apporte l'aventure de la vie. Et puis après tout, dans un monde où coexiste désormais des millions de blogs, qui suis-je pour espérer me démarquer ?

Je ne suis pas ici pour vous raconter les détails ma vie personnelle (d'ailleurs, je déteste cette idée de connaître trop de détails sur la vie des gens). Je ne suis pas non plus ici pour vous bombarder de photos ou de me vanter de mes dernières réalisations... donc la question se pose et elle est très légitime, quel est le but de ce blog ?

Philosophe, j'ai envie de réfléchir sur la vie qui nous entoure et de vous partager mes réflexions sur des sujets qui me passionne : l'aide humanitaire, la réalité vécue dans le contexte d'une langue seconde, l'histoire et la politique. Passionnée, j'ai aussi envie de vous parler d'un merveilleux projet qui habite mon existence, l'adoption internationale.

Bref, ça vous intéresse, bienvenue à bord.